Novena to the Blessed Virgin

Hail Mary, full of grace
The lord art with thee.
Blessed art though among women and
Blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, mother of God,
pray for us sinners now
and at the hour of our death.
Amen

Say this novena 9 times a day for 9 days and your desire will be granted.

JLO/CJY

Shaking in my boots...

Greetings Jennifer—
Here is your horoscope for Tuesday, November 1:
You never expected to feel this way this soon, but as far as your heart is concerned, it doesn't matter that they're not from your neck of the woods. Keep in mind that people move long-distance all the time.

Oh God, here I sit with an email from him in my box—he never sends email, just calls.

Well, it was not as bad as expected, nor as good. We talked, came to a bit of an understanding, though it was not as much as I need. But at least we're talking in a more realistic manner now. It's just that our realities are so totally different. Only a softening of his resolve, heart, will ever enable us to be on the same page at the same time...

Running with scissors...

Greetings Jennifer—
Here is your horoscope for Sunday, October 30:
You're due for quite the emotional moment, regardless of who you're with,
where you are, or what your companion says or does. Basically, the universe has posted an astrological Hallmark card that's a real tear-jerker. Open it and enjoy it.

While I can't quite say this day has turned out to be even close to a tear-jerker, it has been pretty disquieting & I am not enjoying it at all...

Tommy & I had a very long talk early this morning—one which continued as he drove over the Causeway, arrived home, showered, and then settled down on the sofa with a beer. We talked the entire time, mostly being nice.

But he's also pissed. Two months after the fact. I mean, I told him in late August that I'd spoken with his son when I was unable to locate him (Tommy) after Katrina. He never asked what we talked about, other than how I explained myself to him (our long-ago affair, during which time the son was born). However, this morning he asked for details...

Well, it wasn't very pretty, to say the least, even though I omitted some of his son's more hurtful remarks. He was furious & vehemently denied allegations of a lifetime of cheating well as that Cherry & he did not have a happy marriage. This was nothing but solid gold bullshit, however, since he himself told me months ago that while they had a 'nice if unfulfilling' marriage, it was nothing like the extraordinary one we would have had, had we been free to marry... He plans on confronting his son about all of it today, as he is in town. God, let it not be too brutal...

This went on & on for almost an hour & a half—broken up by a more light-hearted exchange when I asked him if he wanted to come over & fuck me. He returned by asking me to come over there & fuck him. Too bad this didn't happen last Saturday when I could have dashed right over...

I don't know where we're going from here. He has almost totally gone back inside himself, save for that we still are talkining. I'm writing him a rather direct letter saying, more or less, to shit or get off the pot. I'm praying he'll think it over long & hard—realize all he has in me—& stay...