Nawlins bound...

Tommy & I talked for almost an hour today—a nice talk, nothing intimate or serious. He is being very cautious now (& I can't say that I blame him)....

But, I am heading over there next month. May just stay one night, maybe three, maybe forever. All depends, he said. Kind of makes it tough to make travel arrangements, so suppose I'll end up having to pay an airline penalty as well as for extra hotel nights. But I might not, either. It's all up to him at this point &, after my bad behavior, I'll have only a short time to prove myself—whether or not he wants me to extend my stay.

Whatever the case may be, I'm scared shitless. I'll either come back walking on clouds or holding together the pieces of a broken heart...so I'm going to go into best behavior mode—gym every day to buff up, no booze & crazy late night calls or emails; no tears, no demands... Our future depends on it.