A love letter to Tommy...

Despite the passage of lots of years, there was an incredibly easy familiarity & intimacy to our conversation that definitely blew my mind...seemed as though we’d talked only yesterday! I got to know you better in several hours of phone conversation than I ever did in the time we were together! I didn't know you had three sisters, or that your father left when you were five, didn't know you hated football—that it was just a means to an end—or ever imagine that you would remember so much about our relationship. And one thing I never knew at all is how sensitive you are. To me you were a God—perfect & strong & infallible—& I was just the girl who was in love with him.

I’m sure you're scared (I sure am!)—doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure it out. Your wife died just a little over a year ago, & you may not be exactly ready to embark on a new life, even though your gut reaction was telling you—if only for the few hours we talked—to go for it.

You talked about how amazing it is that we've come full circle. But we haven't—not yet, anyway. There's 90 degrees yet to travel, & I think we owe it to ourselves to complete the journey, see what Fate has in store for us. I don't believe mere coincidence led me to search for you now as opposed to five or ten years ago, or that—once I started looking—you became so very easy to find.

I have no agenda or expectations, Tommy—whatever will be, will be: we might fall into bed (again), might fall in love (again), or maybe just end up being wonderful friends. However we do end up, though, I won't be disappointed (unless you totally disappear on me, that is). I'm just happy to have you back in my life, regardless of what your role in it might be, & don't want to lose you again...